5 || Past Lives

Fate.

To have an eight thousand past lives together to be one married couple.

Na Young, if this was one of our past lives, in our next life we might have gotten married.

What do you think we will be?

I am not sure.

Me too, either.

The hugs

The holdbacks

The dialogue we had

At times it seems lost.

Like we are Na Young and Hae Sung.

They are saying those words, those sentences, those feelings.

That I have said before, or imagined I have said those before.

I still remember you once asked what kind of house I would like to live in.

White walls, wooden flooring.

Light flooring but dark furniture.

Cotton-made sofa covers, wooden handles, but dark.

Lots of natural light coming through.

Yeah, I am thinking the same too, you said.

I asked you why you chose to travel with me.

I don't know, you said.

Then what about you, you asked.

I don't know either, but I know I must find this out.

We both have the same answer.

I asked the keeper about our fate.

The keeper shows a vision of I am a nurse and you are a doctor.

Yes, one of our past lives.

I am sure that there is more to say, about us.

Other than very good partners to each other at work.

You are married, I am not.

You wanted to take care of me but you can't.

So you came into my world.

Said that I am your unclosed chapter.

You walked into my heart.

The longer you stay, the clearer you see.

You are more and more focused on what you give each day.

We grew from friends with lots of jokes to serious chats each time.

I find it really hard to bid those old days goodbye.

Thinking that I should and I would have done better if I had known it earlier.

But now, looking back.

I see that we were just meant to be like this.

We are meant to be.

It is meant to be for leaving some good old days (and some regrets) behind.

It is meant to be for us to walk this pathway, together.

It is meant to be for us to keep in touch, not often, for you to hear me out.

They are all meant to be.

Thank you.

I really wanted to say.

Thank you for making this wish by appreciating what I have been, in one of our past lives.

Thank you for really making all these come true, with the wish you made in one of our past lives.

Thank you for coming into my world.

Thank you, really.

I think I am able to let go of the thought of reminiscing and regretting our good old days laughing together, trying to avoid you, making the choice, saying goodbye, calling you again, having lots of assumptions where you might never have, involving you into something that you would not like to be involved in.

Thank you for coming into one of my past lives and becoming a VIP in my life.

Thank you and I always will.

See you again. Na young ah.