3 || A Loyal Warrior

I saw you.
Your hair got longer, your skin tanner.
I saw you afar.
Moving around, actively, like a summer breeze.

It feels bizarre to look at you like that.
I mean, from afar.
It feels like I did that before.
Watching you, playing basketball, under the sunset.
When I was once a student, standing outside the fence.
Watching you play beautifully.

I know why we never talked ever since.
I know I should keep my feelings, my questions, and my answers to myself.
Within myself.
Forever.

I know that you are not the one.
I clearly know that you will never be the one.
But still, I wonder.
What if we met that day at the lift lobby?
What if we met that day at platform 34?
What if we met that day when I was crying badly in my car, ten steps away from your place?
What if you came out to greet me that morning instead of staying in your cosy blanket?

Maybe, just maybe.
Maybe we will not contact again.
Maybe I can accept and get through this more easily.
Maybe I don't have to be here, talking to myself and helping myself out of it.

Someday in some time
A destined time
Future, not so far away
Feels like we will meet again
Somewhere on this earth, like
Melbourne?
Egypt?
Lebanon?
Least likely,
Singapore.
Loyal warrior who was once mine, thank you for everything
I think I will let time tell what is coming up next for us
Keep out of reach, for now.
Especially that feeling, that once was my
Umbrella of getting drunk.

Some day in the far future, I will forget.
I will forget about us.
I will forget what I thought we once shared.
I will forget what I remembered that we have been through.
Thank you, thank you and bless you.

Now all I have to do is forget about you.
But I want to give you all my blessings.
I wish that the next she you saved, you hugged and you kissed,
It would always be the same her, who loves you a lot, with all her heart.
You seriously deserved it, and I really meant it.

Like all the beautiful stars you have seen before, and all the Milky Way you captured.
She will stay there, be there, forever by your side.