2 || I wanted a space.

I wanted a space.

A quiet space.

With the blue sky as backdrop.

Only for myself.

It is quiet.

Safe and sound.

The floor is wooden flooring.

But smooth.

I will wear my thick black working socks.

That I brought from Daiso.

I will play whatever songs I feel like at that moment.

And record the dancing silhouette.

It is alright even if the dancing is not nice.

It is alright even if the movement is a bit stiff.

I am who I am.

I am the one and original me.

Listen, laugh when you wanna cry.

You know clearly that a worry will solve another one.

You will forget the old worried when a new one came by.

Maybe that is the way you want to live.

1 || Clear

Something is unclear.

It stucks somewhere between my throat and my chest.

I can't breathe.

I cannot think clearly.

I am not me.

But why? 

I am at the place that I am most familiar with.

Dans le monde entier.

I asked. I nagged. I annoyed.

You have the ability to see things clearly by yourself you see.

I started to try.

I took deep breaths and spoke my mind.

Something underneath started to flow.

The emotions. The feelings.

I am in love. I was in love.

But I am sorry that I did not see it clearly and stop it from the very beginning.

I begged for forgiveness and I thanked for everything.

Thank you for having the courage to admit it even if it is very hard.

Thank you for being there for me even if it is suffering.

Thank you for being able to catch me when I fell apart.

Thank you for everything.

Everything that you feel and be honest with it.

Now, I am able to see it clearly.

Now, I am able to bid it farewell.

Now, I am able to give it lots of wishes for happiness.

It doesn't matter if it doesn't matter to you.

As long as I find closure within myself.

Although it still stings sometimes when I feel it, I am feeling way better than ever.

Love can heal.

Only you can do that.

I wish you all the best in finding happiness.

Unexpected encounters that make your heart flutter.

Sail on! Don't wait around.

If we are never going to meet again.

Loneliness will be long gone even without your accompany.

Our memories together.

Very likely will not be forgotten.

Ever.

Don't look back and keep chasing.

Young hearts.

Of course together with the ability to love again. Even if it rains, always remember, that you will have your umbrella with you, as long as you hold on tight.

Thank you for everything, really.