A new season.

Time flies, season changes.

That's right, the farewell season is here.
Cards to make, gathering and farewell party to attend. Always wishin' that you guys will have a really great uni life studying abroad, no matter the days are happy or sad, just enjoy it.

Soon you will reach the mountain top and feeling great cuz you've grow up when climbing up the hills, cuz you've learn to be a better person after those days :)

Wish that we will keep in touch although uni life is much more busier than high school, our friendship never change 

Feelin stress...

Muet test in around the corner. Maybe that's the reason I get emotional easily...
At the same time, I think the whole world is an enemy to me. I know I don't have to think like that, I might have more positive thoughts, but I can't. I can't make it. It soon covered with another negative reaction mum made. I know I have to understand as a daughter I should know how to share the house chores automatically, without any request. But this feeling about being treated unfairly throughout my older times has already haunted me for so many years. I can understand why mum make me do this and that but Rome is not build in a day, so do my feelings. The feelings that piling up more and more as days went by, the misunderstanding that gets deeper and deeper without an early realise. Believe or not, the thought has already rooted in my brain and my concept and it makes me feel sad easily. The only way to solve this feeling temporarily is to share this to my close friends and try to get some understanding. But, I can't spread the bad feelings anywhere so I decided to turn it into words that speaks silently.

Ps: Diary a month ago that I found in the draft box. Writing really makes me feel better, something you can't speak? Turn it into words! 😆

A letter for husby

The reasons I love you?

I can't answer what is the main thing that I fall for you. Its just, I feel like you're dazzling in the crowd.

You're kind, considerate, loving, caring and what you do is, always pampering me with all your love and make me laugh to give me a nice day ☺ can't state too clear about the reason I fell for you but I always know that I'm too lucky to have you 😘

Little by little, you make me love you deeper than every yesterday. I never regreted about my choice and loving you is the thing that I most looking forward when I opened my eyes every single morning.

With you, I feel like every single dreams we dreamt of can come true.
With you, I feel like I'm so lucky to showered by your love everyday.
With you, I have faith to move on and prove that we are made for each other.

I'm so blessed to have you to stay around me and support me in any aspect I'm doing that is right, always.

To say loud about I will never leave you confidently everytime because you never give me a reason to leave. Although there is, just let the things happen in the past be the past, we will still carry on the values we learned in the lessons to future because people always learn from mistakes.

Relationship is always hard, there wouldn't be rainbows and butterflies all the way in relationship and thanks to this, we help each other to grow and be strong.

Come what may, I will love you, husby.

Hold tight and we shall leap through obstacles, together.

Lost.

一个人的空房，一个人的讨论室。
多给一些耐心吧，要有耐心，才可以等到想要等的那个人，才可以等到梦想成真的那一天。要努力，才可以实现自己想要的，就算结果并非自己想象中那么好，却不会后悔，因为已经努力过了。

我需要和自己聊一聊，这些日子里，要想的、要完成的、要做决定的、要忙的，实在太多太多了。我感觉迷失了自己。但我却不知道该怎么办才好。亲爱的正能量放假去了，我一个人在原地踌躇着、徘徊着。我该往哪里走？我该怎么做？我该怎么做选择？还有，我到底…怎么了？

不想给周围的人发现自己似乎有点不对劲，因为不想让周围的人担心，因为我根本就不知道自己怎么了。嘿，我们到底是什么关系？我们到底还要逃避多久？你到底在想什么？怎么你以前说的和现在做的已经不一样了？

(oops…突然间的情绪化…不好意思 😅)

真希望可以有瞬间忘记烦恼的习惯，尽情地快乐，就好。😊

Try to make someone happy

Don't you ever having a thought that you wanna help people beside you to feel better when they are down?

This is what I made for my friend when he is quite upset about his studies. He has inspired me to make a card that will cheer someone up :) (and actually, I get the idea from an image I downloaded from Pinterest couple weeks ago)

And then the ideas just come in and help me a lot when making the card. Thanks to my friend I've found a small talent in me while making crafts, to know that I can make a simple craft without knowing the steps of making it!! This is a new thing and I'm so happy with it! Plus I did love to making crafts since I'm young :)

So, hope I can update you guys more about the next craft I made! And thanks for reading! :D

This is the picture I get from Pinterest. :)

Front page with small tricks~

Tada! Here comes a nerdy dog to cheer you up! ^^

In the content I draw an illustration to say:

No matter what

Please remember that

I'm with you. :)

Just a small touch up at the last page of the card. ;)

Love, Arelis.

Confused

Alone again.

I don't know how many times I have to feel like that. It seems rather irritating to me. Should we continue to move on like this? Staying together, accompanying each other all the time, but we are friends? And ex?

Neither I nor him like the feelings that we have to tell the others that we are ex.

I wonder how things would be if one day, we already get used to be in this relationship. Our interaction is like in between couple and friend. What if we already get used to it? What if?

Perhaps we are not suitable for each other. But just, I don't know why I can't afford losing him, as a friend or as a in-between-couple-and-friend.

I'm still having green eyes because I want him still be mine. Am I too selfish? Maybe? But who cares?

You still feed me with any delicious food no matter how scary the look I am when I gobble up the food ♥

It's Bubz!!

Hello there! 

Just finish watching the video uploaded from a recently favourite vlogger of mine. It's bubz. Her video is kinda inspiring and funny and giving me positive energy all the time. You can see the life of a normal (but for me she is not :) ) girl changing into a young, energetic and positive mother. I like her very much (include the way she talks) and I did, apparently admire her because she develops a great and perfect life with her right ones and love ones. Although she went through a hard high school life but she struggles to get over it. I admire her courage, beauty, kindness, generosity and the most of all, the power to give people warm in the heart. I feel the warm when I watch her videos. :) 

It's okay to admire others life but it's not that good to asking ourselves "why I'm not him/her? Why I didn't live his/her life?" and start to get negative energy all over your mind. 

I believe in faith. I believe that everything is already arranged in our life. Career, wealthy, family, relationships and more are already well arranged. We just have to walk the path well and life goes on. That's the reason I'm happy with what I have and who I am in this world. :)

I appreciate everyone I met,

I appreciate anything I had, 

I am happy with who I am.

So hey, if you are facing a gloomy or sad or bad day, please remember that life is full with ups and downs, no one lives a perfect life and SMILE. :) 

It's okay to cry, too. Cuz you'll get a warm hug here! (hug)

So, that's for all now. 

Bye! 

Love, Arelis. 

你好

你好。

不知道这几天你过得怎样？
不知道你是不是和我一样想念以前的日子、一起去过的地方、一起做过的事、答应过要一起做的事、说好以后要送的礼物。

我明白我们必须冷静一阵子，我明白我不该那么频繁的联络你。但是我没有办法控制，我决定放纵自己。

分开过后的那一天我们说过的话，你还记得吗？不知道当时所说的话和你现在想的一样吗？ 但是我还是一样哦，我不会改变哦，至少现在是，以后也会是。

有人说我需要时间，需要慢慢放下你。
但我给了那么多，我做得到吗？

内心好悲伤，好忧郁，我没有办法宣泄出来，因为我不想麻烦身边的人，应该说也没有人会重复性地听我说悲伤的话。

因为难过很危险，会传染的。

除了自己，谁能帮我？

I can't help myself.

I still love you so much.

谢谢你。あいしてる。

好久没有听到你的声音了? 

也不是，昨天才通过几十秒钟的电话…

或许是荷尔蒙失调的关系，我变得爱自以为是，我以为自己可以忍，我以为自己还会记得，我以为我一直都能够拥有最好的心情。 

我有好多事情想对你说。

好多好多，多到可以一次过讲一个小时的电话。但是我并没有说完，这个情况就好像考试前几天读了太多的资料，课本内容塞满了脑但却在进入考场那一刻将之完全忘却。

有太多想说了，到最后想说的时间过了，只剩下一片空白的脑袋。

什么都说不出来。

＂唉~＂

＂怎么了吗? 干嘛一直在叹气啊？你还没有告诉我你的事情呢~＂

一片静默。

＂好啦，你不想说就不勉强你啦。＂

我在努力地想着可以先告诉他什么。

该死! 为什么在紧要关头却什么都说不出来?!

＂喂喂? 好咯，要挂电话啦~ 最近不知怎么的电话费变贵了。＂

＂喔…＂明显的不舍、略带哭腔。

＂永宁啊，我也想念你了啊。＂

我愣住了，你怎么知道我想说什么? 

电话的这一头，我笑了。

谢谢你啊亲爱的。总那么愿意在我身上花时间、花心思、甚至花钱。

每当我有话想说，你总静静的听着。

我任性了，你不生气，还告诉我就是喜欢这种性格。

我闹脾气了，你不生气，还告诉我就是喜欢这种性格。
我没有理由地难过了，你没办法安慰我却不恼怒，还告诉我＂没关系，我会陪着你度过的＂。

我还能上哪儿找到像你这样的男朋友? 

世上仅剩一个了。

告诉你也不相信，我就是那个幸运儿。

我爱你，越来越爱你了。

 

         对，没错，幸运儿就是我。 <3